sometimes there are no lessons, there isn't anything to glean from a particular trauma, maybe that you are still alive is all there is, it not the "lesson" but it is the reality, and maybe you cannot escape and maybe while it's not "alright" acceptance is all there is, sometimes acceptance is it's own trauma, I don't need to look on the bright side and believe it will all be better one day and all battles can be won, I use to believe something like this but almost a five year anniversary tore this "belief" apart though it just brought me back to what is inescapable 




(Jan. 2, 2019)