Now that I’m old 

I require water 

the lights off 

life to let go 

leave me alone 

all love known 

decapitated 

I listen at the door 

I accept 

there is no company 

no hello 

no how are you 

it’s been so long 

can’t wait to see you 

I’ve missed you

I've dreamed you 

all these years waiting to once again find you 

I listen and wonder

is it my executioner? 

please tell them to come in

are you living well? 

I’m crawling through the machine 

hands and feet 

with some lovely days in-between