you've seen the birds hang off the windows for years the strangers pass a little more dormant to fear

what do I say to all the unconfirmed dreams 

the waves of serendipity that never came

(Poetry exercise in Christopher Bursk workshop at Caesura Poetry Festival 2019, R.I.P, 1943-2021)

the distance between crimes non-existent

expelled and un-amendable 

a year of no memory

pain is in the clear 

a shining emery 

a psychic space 

a psychic pain 

madness screams out an unknown name

Now that I’m old 

I require water 

the lights off 

life to let go 

leave me alone 

all love known 

decapitated 

I listen at the door 

I accept 

there is no company 

no hello 

no how are you 

it’s been so long 

can’t wait to see you 

I’ve missed you

I've dreamed you 

all these years waiting to once again find you 

I listen and wonder

is it my executioner? 

please tell them to come in

are you living well? 

I’m crawling through the machine 

hands and feet 

with some lovely days in-between

I lost all my friends because my corpse was too heavy
it's broader than the galaxy 
it is a gateway to unthinkable tragedy 
that wasn't on purpose by me 
but it was destiny 
amidst all the terror I am a holy being 
this is my favorite thing

you thought amidst all the entanglements of your sorrows and horrors that one day you would win... luck but never fortune

pain is a full time managerial speciality

all through the misery keep on remembering

fundamental decay

I’m too melancholic to ever be so wild you took out from under me the skin tiles

where the day takes you to strand or betray you

we met 
we loved
the devastation complete 
time has transformed us
informing us 
of incredible defeat

summer is warm and sad 

and it fatigues the scales of my skin 

remember now how young we are 

and how we will never be this young again 

you broke the skeleton lock

sometimes I think I won the war then I look up and see it was just changing it’s choice of weapon

when they walk past my grave are they choked with the dirt encircled around my mouth

this beauty will not stay I’m sorry