Heaven is a place misguided 

a warehouse of weapons armed

an alarm of cautious sirens 

time sees through the pale filtered you

it pleads that you be something worth all those graves

 Maybe in an alternate self I would wear red lips and couldn't cut myself radiant ideas and impossible dreams are the burdens you would believe them to be

who exists forever when it time we all exit through

Just give me the electric chair

I've worn out the leather of my wares

committed to the deep-seated flesh and bone

I call my past and tell them I'm coming home

 

From having seen a new favorite film George Orwell's The Trial with the enigmatic leading madman performance by Anthony Perkins at The Film Forum.
 

in my life I was like the underground 

not obvious my meaning would be found

in my life I can’t shake the malaise

a stale haunted inaccurate dream

an antiseptic of other’s ‘maybe next times’

they call on me to perceive what I lost before I went to sea 

crawling out of life’s bloodstream 

one learns everything, nothing and anything 

the perseverance disappears

its ghostly limbs and boughs wither like fear 

🎉🎉🎉🎉💕👍👊😍

 ground game gear battle tear

Nov. 7, 2022, another highlight of the year part II. 👆

Part III. morning of Nov. 9, 2022 😍😎💕👊🎉🎉🎉

Congrats to Gisele and John so proud to have stomped pavement, hiked, circled, traversed known and unknown neighborhoods, calculated proper footing adjustment on various terrain, knocked on hundreds of doors, conversed with strangers, dropped literature, placed signs, hangout and handouts from Fetterman mobile, and made calls and texts for you, Shapiro and Susan Wild, so satisfying to have been a part of it. Sept. 29 - Nov. 7, 2022. 

Women's work gets this down. Eat it fascists.

***update 7.30.2025, have been torn for awhile, especially since the smiling Butcher Bibi Israel trip the genocide orge set up, and that article that came out. Yet I want to keep this as a momento of this moment and feeling, despite what I feel now. Thought it was only the photo not the cringe text also accompanied. Fetterman is on the last train out (fingers crossed) too many despise you, your base and resist wine moms, this ain't Texas or Montana asshole. 

Also radical tenderness is meaningless with what has been occurring.

I do like canvassing though, I have no idea why. It's some ailment I think is terminal. I won't waste it on Fetterman again however.

 ground game gear and souvenirs 

💪👋👟👄🗺

👀😍👊 right down the street from me

*update: Feb. 15, 2024

I have been weighing whether I would take this post down for a few months after I became gutted and horrified at Fetterman's stance on Palestine that grew more disgusting as time went on, what a feat! Fastest turn around even my mom said she's ever seen. 

No politician and no state matters more than people especially oppressed people and even more the very people that state is oppressing. I had feelings of being ashamed and yet what did I specifically do, this is not on me and this was a time period in my life and event I enjoyed and despite what his transformation I'm not going to let the good memories that have been few in these years be fully throttled. I worked hard in organizing to help fend off the GOP in the midterms. Fucking ripping abortion from us I wasn't going to sit on the sidelines. And while this person was a massive disappointment to say the least I'd rather keep it up as it's a meaningful piece in my life I wanted to share. As well as I guess a cautionary tale. 

No gods, no masters, no heroes, no martyrs, no saviors.

Highlight of the year part I. 😍

*** update 7.30.2025

This aged quiet badly, all downhill 😑💔😣