Waiting at a door patiently for it to open that never will because the locks keep getting changed. The passes and codes constantly rearrange and they keep you in the dark. There is an ominous secret you can't decode. The story never corrects. This is the schemata, everything else was delusion, hope, and most of all distraction. Some people will never comprehend all the fortune they have. Likely because they are too busy living a life in an abundance with those who care and love for them openly and without restraint. Sometimes the only healing one has is to keep themselves close enough to the dark and only go into the light to find some warmth every now and then. 

like a fever like a flower like a wild ether

Things fall apart and time breaks your heart

America has a lot of tragedy up it’s sleeve

I see optimism of the flood of new and wrong info that did not correlate to my past writings that she could lose, that there was an eerie sense and while I saw signs on the roadways when got back they did not materialize so much on lawns clouded me in last few days. One long street that had a bunch of Biden signs in 2020 has been almost dead quiet. So the PA Dems definitely lied about signs they couldn't keep up demand. In past talking to some canvas coordinators they said the campaign was being stingy with giving away too many signs. You know it makes me think about this past Monday where I volunteered to chauffeur people who came in from NYC to help canvas. A man I was talking to who volunteered his time to help organize coming from out of state said he hoped some people would take some of the signs that were still available. But I guess that's the thing, they were still available and trying to off set them. Driving some of the people around I was in more swingy parts of Lehigh Valley and they seemed shell shocked by the normalcy of Trump flags, banners, and multiple signs on people's lawns. So seeing more of those than Harris I should have just not gone on twitter and look for some hope. When I'd talk with multiple people over past couple months I seemed to be one of the rare cautious reads of the race. Anyway a lot of words to say it is all so very tragic and we haven't even begun what that will look like. What will begin in a few months that will reverberate for years. Biden was the death blow overall. I need a long break politically, cause the weight of the world without a pause will not help me in what I need to do and who I remain to be.

you've seen the birds hang off the windows for years the strangers pass a little more dormant to fear

 Fuck yeah Ohio, Virginia, Kentucky 😍😍💕💕

I think it's pretty clear that abortion is the winning coalition issue of our time. The numbers in off years are just astronomical for things such as yes or no ballots, picking a Supreme Court seat, language changes to the constitution, April, August, double digits winning in ruby red places, winning by hundreds of thousands of votes?! Like the writing is right there on the wall screaming out to the national Democrats. It's time for a bully pulpit approach Biden and Harris, no timidity or meekness. Virginia rejected Youngkin's "moderate" 15 week ban so no need to word it as Republicans supporting extreme abortion restrictions. Abortion is freedom by freedom of choice, it is healthcare, it is economics, it is the most kitchen table issue ever, planning the rest of your life and your family or possible family, what's more kitchen table than that?  I wish the politicians who support protection for it could message it like this.

The American media has lied to us for decades how razor thin a division this issue was, growing up for years hearing this script only to find it was all smoke and mirrors and it's not close at all. Even some of the left shamefully bought into this. Maybe many regular people  can't formulate it in this way but they do see a clear correlation of an erosion of human rights overall if a person is not allowed to decide whether they give birth or not. 

The numbers mean it's not just the dem base or only the young or only women, it's a cross coalition issue and that is a rarity, grab it by the horns and drive it home. Abortion is healthcare. A person's abortion is none of your business. Abortion is freedom of choice and personal agency. People have had enough of the forced birth movement shoved down our throats at all given times through decades of American media who showcased and propped them up and all the dem politicians with their milquetoast apologizing for being pro-choice. 

Abortion is a human right and don't let anyone ever tell you less.