'surely don't stay long'

though it's all over now your all I ever dream about because I think your the only dream I ever had that I was going to have, and I've asked and wanted too much, so that was my dream and the rest were used before time was up, don't wish young one, your growing old, its over now

17 yrs, does it cut your cheekbone any less, saturate your under-eye circles more, do you have a moment to breathe ? I think I've lived more than I might ever be able to pen, I think I've lived so intently that when or if and when nor how they will slide my body through the back door cold or not, than debriefing will take place and will be more brief either panic or sadness. 

I could have walked away 

one week 17yrs 

but I made a choice, here is to all the choices I made that no longer have merit lessen and deepen the fear

I guess I could have said no but I choose not to. I did not walk away. 

Maybe I took on the wrong set of plans.

Low

You try to sleep
'Cause there's never enough
You try to sleep
But then you never wake up
Inside the dream
You take a step
You come to see
To see your debt

Try to sleep
Don't look at the camera
Try to sleep

You stretch your wings
You take a breath
You hide your feet
Embrace your head
A tragedy
No, there's never enough
You try to sleep
But then you never wake up

Try to sleep
Don't look at the camera
Try to sleep

But then you never wake up

'soaked in bleach'

'Pull me out of the aircrash'

'don't leave this mark'