I didn't want to lose and I didn't want to bargain

I didn't want to try again

so I padlocked the box and I returned it

I looked at all those alternative lives like a gift horse in the jawline

that ran out of time and got taken out back to be shot

but it escaped it’s captors like a landslide 

it hangs around a meadow of vines, willows 

soft clouds and beaming grass 

grief is not like death because it just keeps going

And I took our bones to our favorite spot

god made me into something I am not

In honor of the coward and warmonger once upon a time a progressive dream Fetterman also known as Israel's cheerleading ethnic cleansing ''if I'm the last man standing on this horrific stance so be it' bully

   A coward, a bully, a poseur in your empathy for the oppressed and forgotten. I think deep down you know you lack sensitivity that’s why you act to compensate whatever ego you have or your weakness and insecurity of one. You are aware there is a bully inside that you kept trying to hide and escape from. Yet now you have acquired power and treatment you feel ennobled you don’t owe anyone anything. You throw your wife under the bus even. You grin ghoulishly at the people pleading for you to understand the Palestinian’s horror and plight of the last 75 years. 

  You lie and say you have no idea what happened to progressives when you have been in these circles for years and exclaimed those were your people. You throw the term “pinko” as if you transformed into some Archie Bunker character. You positioned yourself for years on the political stage saying you stand up for the common man but those with clear eyed empathy can now see right through that. I’m ashamed to have supported and believed in you and waived away my first impressions of you. All those on the political right who attacked, belittled and demeaned not only you but your family now they sing your praises, and you do a photo shoot for one of the biggest media platforms for right wing propaganda. 

  

  One day this will all catch up in some form. I hope one day if you realize what you gave up it pains you a soul crushing ache that never abates. And as you try to sleep off these bouts of dread and sorrow you become consumed with the imagery and screams of the Palestinians. Especially the children who have been killed, maimed, and the ones who have to go on surviving after the genocide show.

Through your dismissal of the Palestinians you have given complicity to the media and political figures finding ways to distort the dead to not be seen as victims but as hollowed ghosts who had dreadful lives filled with backward violent people that didn’t matter. To you those people could never be real victims. Their truth and history is inconvenient for your narrative. But you are lucky you don’t even try to both sides this issue because they aren’t human to you.

  If I were religious I would pray that your fabricated bravery and astute acknowledgment that “war is hell” and full guttural maniacal support of Israel leaves an unmovable stain on your career. But you’re a politician in a country with short term memory of genocidal conflicts this country funds and perpetuates in lands many couldn’t point to on a map because it’s ‘over there.’ You will probably be off the hook by most sadly. I’m glad you blotted out your tattoo because you don’t believe in the core values of any of that. And even if you don’t come to any realizations as most cowards don’t, I hope the screams of the dead and dispossessed in Palestine and all in the diaspora haunt your dreams forever.

The World is About to End

Funeral Parade of Roses (1969)

 

Funeral Parade of Roses (1969) (opening)

cut the silver lining out of ash 

the temperament 

the tilt of the hour glass

Feb. 12, 2023