America has a lot of tragedy up it’s sleeve

I see optimism of the flood of new and wrong info that did not correlate to my past writings that she could lose, that there was an eerie sense and while I saw signs on the roadways when got back they did not materialize so much on lawns clouded me in last few days. One long street that had a bunch of Biden signs in 2020 has been almost dead quiet. So the PA Dems definitely lied about signs they couldn't keep up demand. In past talking to some canvas coordinators they said the campaign was being stingy with giving away too many signs. You know it makes me think about this past Monday where I volunteered to chauffeur people who came in from NYC to help canvas. A man I was talking to who volunteered his time to help organize coming from out of state said he hoped some people would take some of the signs that were still available. But I guess that's the thing, they were still available and trying to off set them. Driving some of the people around I was in more swingy parts of Lehigh Valley and they seemed shell shocked by the normalcy of Trump flags, banners, and multiple signs on people's lawns. So seeing more of those than Harris I should have just not gone on twitter and look for some hope. When I'd talk with multiple people over past couple months I seemed to be one of the rare cautious reads of the race. Anyway a lot of words to say it is all so very tragic and we haven't even begun what that will look like. What will begin in a few months that will reverberate for years. Biden was the death blow overall. I need a long break politically, cause the weight of the world without a pause will not help me in what I need to do and who I remain to be.

"Now we are a 150 feet from the promised land."

I wanted the opportunity to feel what these people have in store for me. You can describe a megachurch or a Halloween haunted house but it is an entirely another thing to experience it in person. I wanted to feel the sensation of being submerged into listening to the people who are dictating a dark future and the people surrounding you eating it up, cheering it on. It was at capacity so I only got to stand in line for an hour. The crowd did feel like people anticipating a savior. And the man who blurted out as we moved up in the street "Now we are 150 feet  to the promised land," confirmed that. The photo is from when we were told no one else was being taken in and it was the end of the road. I admit I feel a lot of anger and disgust at his supporters at times but besides the well off and wealthy I mostly just felt sorry for them. Not that they are all being hoodwinked but that for anyone to look at what he is selling and be 'That's good! Sign me up!' What a waste. Life has to be mean more than that to you right?

 

Abortion and reproductive freedom is working class consciousness. Literally economics, personal freedom and self determination. How has the left missed this? Reproductive issues are the most kitchen table issue of working class persons & their families life! Pass it on please. Buckle up to change the narrative before the Handmaid's Tale is implemented.

Lifetime dating repellents criteria that will make me grow cold and alone being eaten by cats and found in overgrown strangled houseplants and toppled with books on my corpse spiel:

Forced birth psychopaths or worse cloaked in "godliness"

Obviously fascists 

Rightward travelers, lurchers, and stans

If trans people make you piss your pants/give you a venomous chuckle/harden your heart

Anti woke tirades

Irony poisoned pilled brains

Your mind is an exploding hybrid of conspiracy theory melting pots tinkering back and forth 

Natural health freaks that defy science, reason, and logic

Classically liberal dissenters 

Anti vax & Covid denialists and skeptics of the last 4 years (seriously fuck you)

Heterodox moderate sharks (you ain't fooling me)

"Both sides" well meaning fools and calculated swindlers 

Post-left jokerfied dupes

Contrarian con men

"Politics don't mean anything/it doesn't matter" monologues

"Billionaires make the world a better place with a brighter future ahead for us all"

"Low birth rates are no joke"

"You wouldn't have psychological health issues if it wasn't for capitalism"

One of your pastimes is hating kids and even worse doing so loudly and wrongfully complaining how annoying & stupid they are. There is a reason people lose their minds in Children of Men, a film many of these same people love to cite.

If you find caring about and helping people you don't know, never will, and who can never repay you back a waste of time.

If you believe abortion and reproductive rights is just a culture war issue that the left needs to get past and not an ongoing commitment for people's reproductive freedom and self determination.

You think Palestinians are worthwhile collateral damage 

I'm not naive but I find doomerism boring and life is too short

*Did I repel you enough?

 

Yeah my theory of the ruling class tech vultures purposeful intent to destroy art and desensitize humans that art doesn't matter get back to work in our company towns cleaning up the climate change disasters is all on display here, because they hate art and see it as getting in their way all here proven

They are coming to crush us and they are broadcasting it happily. You still going to play with your new AI tools? Hypocritically I am typing from an Apple product because we are so crushed with nowhere to go with little room. Can we as artists at least fight against this dystopia and vision they have for us? I honestly don't see it. They are already doing these teachings in art schools and art/photo platforms giving them so much praise. Reading about FKA Twigs one of the last truly innovative contemporary underrated musicians proudly talking about creating her own AI, made me want to cry.  Maybe I'll be pushed to live miserably off the grid yet.

The artists's silence as of late (across all mediums) scares me more than the cops beating up student protestors of what signs trying to read into. If artists are so disconnected in this moment they are not going to be some go to for survival and moral guidance in a fascist regime change coming to an election near you. 

 Coming across the executions of the World Central Kitchen staff earlier and from having read accounts of whatever the fuck non logic looping in Biden's head about this issue of Israel's genocide on Gaza, I realized that Biden is just too committed to change course at this point. Which I feared when the massacre of Oct. 7 took place. I felt immediate dread of the retaliation many could foresee that would unfold. I imagined further into the future, knowing Biden's fanatical 50+ years support of Israel, decades long friendship with butcher Bibi, and how Biden's massive 'don't tell me what I'm doing I know what I'm doing' ego was going to be the greatest hurdle and possibly put the whole presidency in jeopardy so here we are today.

https://www.axios.com/2024/04/03/world-central-kitchen-workers-killed-israel-gaza-jose-andres

https://www.npr.org/2024/04/03/1242489621/world-central-kitchen-aid-workers-killed-gaza

 Guess what bitches ABORTION WINS AGAIN 👀👀💪💪💕💓😍😎🙌 in an another special election 25 points, and there is handwaving because it wasn't the midterm numbers because this is a special election to flip a traditionally red seat. Yet I counter who comes out in special elections normally?  That ain't the blue team, and not in ruby red state of all places. Then the copium that the district is a swing direction and turning blue and its bitches get on board 25 point landslide!! Earthquake and avalanches again and again. Winning coalition issue of our time I keep saying. 

One reason I could never vote for Trump is that I don't hate people that much. Sure they are maddening and they scare me with their cruelty and indifference. Sadden me with the hate they become bloated and self righteous with as if they must breathe and defend it till their very last breath. Truly frightening and baffling characters abound in the universe past, present and whatever the future will be some grossness and evil will be there waiting to greet the rest of us. Sometimes I can't believe I am part of this tragic, powerful, horrifying, fascinating species. Sometimes I think god when will it stop already. Where is this meteorite? 

If I let it creep inside too long, people would drive me crazy enough to make me mentally attempt to try and get myself to go off the grid but I'm no misanthrope. Even the people I rage against and those I loathe the most could never make me hateful enough to vote for the accelerationist button. But so many these days don't seem so concerned. Sometimes I feel like that I was just born to witness this collision and collapse of society in this time period or an eventual one that we all are either holding our breath, whistling pass the graveyard, rage-fully denying or pretend to possess that much indifference toward. 

The last four years seem such stark proof. One of the last masking holdouts. One of the few never infected, knock on wood etc, etc because that kind of luck with something so pervasive can't last forever, but it's good in the meantime. Sometimes I feel I am one of the lasting few that felt it actually mattered that because people died and suffered that it's important to live as if to ease suffering that may befall others. And I feel my sense of isolation in the past couple years is due to just knowing that's not a norm from seeing this mass scale rejection. Forget being fearful of these buffoonish beholden to capital governments as they have a mixed bag track record when it comes to disasters like these, yet to see the people in the population and community and their behaviors that is the real failure of this American experiment. 

But what can one expect this country was in the gripes of fucking clown sightings moral panic contagion for a couple months in 2016. And then the Stephen King clown became president and he may become president once again! Now we have genocide abroad we are aiding that has the same range and scope of backlash that took out Lyndon Johnson. That's what the Democrats really can't get over. That and always looking over their shoulder to appease the Reagan Democrat, a real political realignment. 40 years rot that Covid fully unearthed.

Sometimes I feel like Goya as in his witnessing and the survival he took on with the world in front of him wrenched and gutted apart. Though he lived a version that nothing presently in the US could come close to. I still think of his witnessing and that shifting him. I wonder what he would do and how he managed to survive. What he did to live, make art and escape all else. Yet we can't necessarily predict these things of what will be assured methods. It doesn’t hurt to contemplate it’s just sad to know why you are contemplating.

- March 23-25, 2024

In honor of the coward and warmonger once upon a time a progressive dream Fetterman also known as Israel's cheerleading ethnic cleansing ''if I'm the last man standing on this horrific stance so be it' bully

   A coward, a bully, a poseur in your empathy for the oppressed and forgotten. I think deep down you know you lack sensitivity that’s why you act to compensate whatever ego you have or your weakness and insecurity of one. You are aware there is a bully inside that you kept trying to hide and escape from. Yet now you have acquired power and treatment you feel ennobled you don’t owe anyone anything. You throw your wife under the bus even. You grin ghoulishly at the people pleading for you to understand the Palestinian’s horror and plight of the last 75 years. 

  You lie and say you have no idea what happened to progressives when you have been in these circles for years and exclaimed those were your people. You throw the term “pinko” as if you transformed into some Archie Bunker character. You positioned yourself for years on the political stage saying you stand up for the common man but those with clear eyed empathy can now see right through that. I’m ashamed to have supported and believed in you and waived away my first impressions of you. All those on the political right who attacked, belittled and demeaned not only you but your family now they sing your praises, and you do a photo shoot for one of the biggest media platforms for right wing propaganda. 

  

  One day this will all catch up in some form. I hope one day if you realize what you gave up it pains you a soul crushing ache that never abates. And as you try to sleep off these bouts of dread and sorrow you become consumed with the imagery and screams of the Palestinians. Especially the children who have been killed, maimed, and the ones who have to go on surviving after the genocide show.

Through your dismissal of the Palestinians you have given complicity to the media and political figures finding ways to distort the dead to not be seen as victims but as hollowed ghosts who had dreadful lives filled with backward violent people that didn’t matter. To you those people could never be real victims. Their truth and history is inconvenient for your narrative. But you are lucky you don’t even try to both sides this issue because they aren’t human to you.

  If I were religious I would pray that your fabricated bravery and astute acknowledgment that “war is hell” and full guttural maniacal support of Israel leaves an unmovable stain on your career. But you’re a politician in a country with short term memory of genocidal conflicts this country funds and perpetuates in lands many couldn’t point to on a map because it’s ‘over there.’ You will probably be off the hook by most sadly. I’m glad you blotted out your tattoo because you don’t believe in the core values of any of that. And even if you don’t come to any realizations as most cowards don’t, I hope the screams of the dead and dispossessed in Palestine and all in the diaspora haunt your dreams forever.